Something God gave me a little bit earlier this month:
That night all the people of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, "If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this desert! Why is the Lord bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn't it be better for us to go back to Egypt?" And they said to each other, "We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt."
All the Israelites complained because they couldn't fathom how God could possibly be working in the midst of what seemed to be very adverse circumstances. How often do we ask ourselves the same question they did? "Why is the Lord bringing us here only to let me fall?!"
Temporary defeat gets the best of us because our human nature can't imagine there being something greater in the future, beyond what we see now. We don't get out of the puddle when there is a beautiful pond right beyond it, in the words of Beth Moore.
Haven't we realized by now, hasn't the Lord done enough for us and in us by now that we know unwaveringly that God absolutely LOVES it when we give ourselves fully to Him, without fear and anxiety about where on earth He might be leading us?
[Hebrews 11:8- By FAITH Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, OBEYED and WENT, EVEN THOUGH he did NOT know where he was going!]
The Lord said to Moses, "How long will these people treat Me with contempt? How long will they refuse to believe in Me, in spite of all the miraculous signs I have performed among them? I will strike them down with a plague and destroy them, but I will make you into a nation greater and stronger than they."
God DESIRES to understand why His people are so whiny; why, no matter what He does, they continunally wander from His plan that He has so blatantly set before them? "in spite of all the miraculous signs I have perfomed for them?"
Even when God winks at us and sets blessings over and over again right in our laps, we continue to wish that He would do more for us.
When I got a sufficient SAT score, I feared DBU wouldn't accept me. When I got accepted to the college that I had so DESPERATELY wanted to attend, I feared I wouldn't get any scholarships. Now that I got the scholarship, I fear about remaining money and making friends.
Is this how God designed it to be? When He saw all that He had made and said that it was very good, do you think He wanted His children from every generation til He comes again to be in a constant state of fear, worry, doubt, and anxiety? Not a chance! :)
Anxiety is one of my biggest battles. These are the verses I've been clinging to:
You turned my wailing into dancing; You removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy, that my heart may sing to You and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give You thanks forever!
Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation.
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My right hand.
1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives our fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
When I said, "My foot is slipping," Your love, O Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, Your love, O Lord, brought joy to my soul.
Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you, He will never let the righteous fall.
And of course, my life verse:
The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still.